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whine, whine, whine
Mar. 15th, 2009 06:18 pmI really, truly envy people who are good with words. Writing essays - hell, even writing LJ posts - is always such a struggle for me. I would love to just be able to knock these things out and know that they're going to have the effect I want, rather than agonizing over every word.
This particular bout of jealousy is brought on by trying to fill in the application forms for Kansai Gaidai. An essay about my 'educational objectives' to help the admissions committee know me better 'as a person'. Another about my 'personality and character' to assist in making an appropriate match with a homestay family. This is like a kind of torture to me. Every time I think about writing these I just feel so overwhelmed and end up putting it off. But I want to get this application finished before the Easter break, so I have to perservere :/
(not even thinking about the huge looming problem of getting references. just. ignoring it.)
I just really, really need for this to all work out. I don't even know what I'll do if I don't get accepted, so every little problem I encounter stresses me out to a ridiculous degree. The other day I went over to the international center to make an appointment with the guy I talked to last year, to check that I'm on track with everything, and the lady at the desk said there wasn't a 'Simon' working there and made me an appointment with Mark instead. So of course I jumped on the Uni website and saw that there is in fact a Simon, and now I'm worried that this appointment is with the completely wrong guy and I'll look like an idiot (and, possibly worse, have to wait another week for another appointment).
*sigh*
Why so useless, self. Just get on with it and stop stressing.
This particular bout of jealousy is brought on by trying to fill in the application forms for Kansai Gaidai. An essay about my 'educational objectives' to help the admissions committee know me better 'as a person'. Another about my 'personality and character' to assist in making an appropriate match with a homestay family. This is like a kind of torture to me. Every time I think about writing these I just feel so overwhelmed and end up putting it off. But I want to get this application finished before the Easter break, so I have to perservere :/
(not even thinking about the huge looming problem of getting references. just. ignoring it.)
I just really, really need for this to all work out. I don't even know what I'll do if I don't get accepted, so every little problem I encounter stresses me out to a ridiculous degree. The other day I went over to the international center to make an appointment with the guy I talked to last year, to check that I'm on track with everything, and the lady at the desk said there wasn't a 'Simon' working there and made me an appointment with Mark instead. So of course I jumped on the Uni website and saw that there is in fact a Simon, and now I'm worried that this appointment is with the completely wrong guy and I'll look like an idiot (and, possibly worse, have to wait another week for another appointment).
*sigh*
Why so useless, self. Just get on with it and stop stressing.
